i am not a negative person ..
i just think about things in a realastic point of view ..
because i am 100% real with my choices and beliefs .. i never brought my fanacies and night dreams up to the real world where i forced everyone to believe it .
because i lived my whole life wanting to escape but never got the chance to ..
i managed to live on a HOPE a dead hope that the distance between now and the hope is far ..
way to far to be alive till then .
so i am being on wait on hold till i find my way to explode .
if you are lucky enough to have a choice ..
i don't . i don't have the ability to choose .
" judge me all the way you want but i taught myself how to resist such an influence "